I was at the laundromat waiting for my clothes to stop drying. I was looking at a little girl maybe two years old, running around, laughing, doing wacky little hops and dances. She looked so care free and happy (that’s cause she probably was). I think sometimes adults look at children and think wow they are so lucky to be able to be so free of responsibility. Children can't wait to be adults. Both wishing they were the other.
The little girl then threw a tantrum because she wanted to go one way and her father wanted to just sit down and not chase after her. Some adults can excuse behavior like that to a certain extent because children are young and don't understand yet that type of behavior is frowned upon. Yet I think adults are jealous of the ability to be able to just let go and be angry. I think a release like that can feel good sometimes (within means of course). I know it would for me. After a day of dealing with a not understanding boss, or running into people who you just don't care to deal with, I wish I could just let go at times and throw a tantrum. And not have to care what people think.
Lately I have been riding on our exercise bike at home. More than that I sort of have been bike dancing. What is that you ask? While my legs make the motion of riding a bike my hands are moving around wildly in the air to the rhythm of whatever song is streaming through my headphones. I look ridiculous of course. A girl (can't call myself a woman yet, and don't think it is wrong to be called a girl…not much anyway) my size bike or chair dancing. I find it so freeing, to close my eyes and just to let go. Of course I can't dance very well if I were standing, but that doesn't bother me much either. I just like the feeling it gives me.